So, I haven't posted on here for a while and it's not because I don't have anything to say. Trust me, I have plenty to say. I just haven't been able to put it all together. I have had so many thoughts racing through my mind that it's been hard to just sit down and focus. I've clicked on the "New Post" button probably a dozen times between tonight and my last post and each time I do the words that are stored in my head seem to just float away.
Why? I'm not sure. I certainly feel like I am a lot less confused about life than when I started this blog. I've made some major decisions in the past month or two and I can honestly say that my life is running pretty smoothly right now. Maybe that's it. Maybe I can't seem to focus because life isn't extremely confusing right now. Before, I had lots of unanswered questions that I could ramble on and on about. Don't get me wrong, I still have plenty of questions that I would love to have answered, but now I know I need to just wait and everything will fall into place.
So I guess that's what tonight's post will be about -- patience.
I'm probably one of the least patient people you will ever meet, at least I used to be. And when I say "I used to be," I mean just a month or two ago. When I wanted something, I wanted it right away. I hated when I didn't know something for sure. I despised unanswered questions.
Now, I'm not saying I don't still struggle with those things, but I feel like I've learned a thing or two about patience in the past couple of months. I know that doesn't seem like a very long time to learn about patience, but for me even just a month is a very long time.
"Patience is a virtue." We've all heard that saying before. I always used to roll my eyes whenever anyone decided to whip that tidbit of advice out in conversation. But now I know that those people were right. Patience is a virtue. Without it, life is just a bunch of things smashed together at all the wrong times.
Sometimes, no matter how bad we want something, we just have to wait. It seems simple on paper, but in reality it's one of the toughest things to do.
The unknown is really so scary and being patient forces you to deal with the unknown. Being patient means you have enough faith and trust to wait for what's right to happen in it's own time. There is a plan for each of us in this life even if we don't realize it. We are blessed to be on this earth and we all have a purpose. God loves us way too much to set us up for failure. When we fail, it's because of the choices that we make ourselves. God has given us each a plan for our lives, but it's up to us to decide whether we fulfill that plan or not. Certain things are supposed to happen at certain times and if we try and change that things just won't work out.
That's why patience is so important. We must be patient so that everything will fall into place. A little less than two months ago, I felt like I was going nowhere. I felt stuck and overwhelmed. I felt like I had to figure everything out right at that point in time, but I was wrong. All I had to do was have patience, faith and hope that everything would work out. At the beginning I certainly had none of those things. But as time went on I learned.
Now, looking back, I can see the bad things that happened because I tried to rush things. On the other hand, I can see all of the wonderful things that have happened because I just waited and had faith. I am blessed to have a job that gives me more hours than most people get. I landed a great internship and have been offered so many awesome opportunities there. I've made some huge decisions about school. I've met some amazing people who make me want to be a better person. And, most importantly, I feel happy. I haven't felt this content in such a long time and I didn't realize how much I missed it. There's no greater feeling than pure happiness.
Don't get me wrong, I still have struggles. But now those struggles just seem a little bit easier to endure. I know I can get through anything because God doesn't give us anything we can't handle. I just need to hold my head up high and let the pieces of my puzzle of a life fall into place.
Everything will work out in the end.
Whatever is meant to be will happen.
I just need to be patient.
